Hi, those of you who are reading, i know it’s been a while, i just really miss this. I just lost all the motivation i had, i don’t know why, but i just lose motivation out of everything really quickly. Thing about the blog is that it really helped me, writing out what was on my mind, rather than keeping it all in to haunt me. Something really important, that happens to us all, FEELING LIKE COMPLETE SHIT FOR NO REASON. Maybe it’s just me, but are you ever just lying down on your bed, looking up at the ceiling, then start thinking about everything. Literally just EVERYTHING at one go, and your mind just loses it, you feel like you’ve done nothing useful in your life, and feel like you’ll always just be useless. You just start thinking about everything you’ve done, maybe start regretting, maybe start thinking about different things you could have said or done which would have changed the situation. And you just get so confused and upset with everything. SADNESS, depression for some. It’s sorta like a disease, i mean it just comes and goes, and you can’t really do anything about it, idk.
Here’s another really important topic, suicide. I know way too many people who told me, that if there was no punishment for it, they would’ve killed themselves. I find this really sad, because no one deserves to feel like that, no one deserves to hate being alive. You think you’d escape the sadness by just disappearing, but trust me, suicide doesn’t end the pain, it just passes it on to someone else. Think about how much it would affect your friends and family. You might say “oh whatever they won’t care” but they do, and they just suck at showing it. Nothing lasts forever, just stay strong, it will get better soon.
People go through a lot of shit, everyone needs to understand this, making fun of them or judging them for the way they respond to it will never help them. JUST BE PATIENT. Smile more, laugh at lame jokes more often, stop caring so much about how people act. Don’t think about things for too long, do the things you love, with the people you love. Spend your life with who makes you happy, not who you need to impress. Happiness is a choice, so don’t convince yourself that you’re supposed to be sad. Stop worrying so much about your past, and focus on what’s coming. Sometimes you just have to learn to let go of things, which you know aren’t good for you, but you still convince your self that it’s fine and you need it.
STOP CARING ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK.
FIND THE PEOPLE WHO APPRECIATE YOU, FOR WHO YOU ARE.